2010 in RetroSPECT (2)

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The sonographer indeed took too long, I could hear my wife's anxiety in her tone of voice and the body language.

Medical language is fascinating it read, 'No foetal activity' you do not need a lawyer to interpret the language, you need your doctor. We spoke to our pastor who is a medical doctor by proffesion. He decoded the same message guess we wanted to hear what the implications were since I was resolute that the fact the sonoG found no heart beat now does not mean the baby is not alive.

I remember by the the time we got home my wife was weeping, she knew I was excited about being a father, we both were in preparation. I had earlier advised my spiritual father, Dr G Shana about the pregnancy and mentioned I cannot believe I will be a father, he teased back and said wavakamudhara manje - typical of dad, he has his intriguing sense of humour and yet drilling the truth in you lest you have forgotten. My wife sobbed and as a loving husband I had to throw away my emotions and provide the crying shoulder. We began to pray.

Have you ever prayed, but the prayer is a declaration, I remember saying that, 'nothing dies in my hands, I have the resurrection life in me, nothing that is mine dies...' its still so I have the ZOE, the God kind of life, the eternal life. NOTHING dies in my hands, I resurrect it if it decides to die on me. WE SPOKE the Word of God, by the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, we began to prophecy, divers kinds of tongues kicked in and we spoke boldly as given utterance. Laughter filled our mouths, joy flooded our hearts and peace that surpasses all understanding enveloped our hearts and mind. God was right there with us in the furnace, in our sorrow, in our grief in our bedroom. We were at peace. My wife said I want my child to be called Grace, I agreed I speak about grace more than most people. Actually my first ever message to preach was entitled - The Word, the power and the grace - I decided to go back to the sonoG, I wanted another scan, I believe God's resurrection power, I do now and will ever do. The sonoG report was the same, my faith had grown, my confession matured. I AM BLESSED, nothing evil happens to me. the hand of the LORD is upon me. I am not moved by this, I AM the blessed one of the LORD.


Unshaken, steadfast, unmoved. Fixed on my God. bring it on, we overcome, bring it up and you see that My God and I are victors. I remember the Holy spirit whispered to me later on and said - my grace is sufficient for you, for now demonstrate how one lives, talks and handles such as one a case. I was not moved, I knew that I am the blessed one, no evil comes to my tent. Even when we agreed to have a baby again, I had no worry, I told my wife the same thing - We are blessed, we are the anointed ones, the hand of the Lord is good toward us. She wanted to worry, I said that's not our portion, we are blessed, God is on our side. She is 4 months pregnant now and I tell you again we are blessed, no evil, devil can change that. The hand of the Lord is upon us. Blessed, blessed, blessed! Declared righteous, declared victorious, declared winners, declared more than conquerors.


In all we went through in 20tenI can only say -IT CAN ONLY BE GOD, we surpassed the challenge, we overcame. We won, we were victors. No broken spirit, our faith in Him has grown and matured. I can say in all humility, I know God, I know His ways, I am acquainted with His personality. He is my Father. His personality has rubbed on me. Ndazara nekutenda, ndazara nehuMwari.OSEYE, isu tatokunda was indeed the song for the year 2010 as was spoken by the Holy Spirit through our mouths.